Last week, I communicated to the foundation board my wish to resign as foundation president and board member. Here are my feelings that lead me to take the decission:
Nearly one year ago I’ve been elected as foundation president. I was excited about it, i’ve been involved with Tryton for more than 10 years and I enjoyed most of the time spent in the project. I tought this was an opportunity to increase the foundation comunication and try to achieve some tasks to make the project bigger in terms of people working on it.
After this time I just found that this had been my worst year in the project. There had been to much days having discussions. Always trying to fill the differences has cost me so much sadness and some sleep hours. I’m phsicologically exhausted and I no longer feel confortable beeing part of the foundation board.
Probably my fault was that I had and expextation which diverged a lot from the reality. I did my best to hear everybody’s opinion and try to understand all of their motivations and rationals. At the end, what I feel is that we (as community) fail to understand with each other and this causes everyone to fight alone instead of joining forces in common paths.
I joined the Tryton project because I liked the idea to have a real community working together which improves the software step by step. I enjoyed such spirit for ages and it was a pleasure to work hard contributing my efforts on the project but I’m no longer enjoying it. I’m not planning to leave the project but currently I feel pain on every little effort I try to do.
I’ve always been a person who wanted to do. My last effort as president of the board was to publish a yearly recap of income and expense of 2023. When I asked for the bank details of the foundation I got a reply said that they are updated every three months. As always, I’ve offered myself to encode them in a faster period but instead of getting help on moving forward I got unclear replies like for example that we need an accounting auditor role for the foundation server. After 30 days what I understand is that there is no interest on such task, so I will just give up. This is just the last example of how I get exahusted whenever I try to do something for the Tryton project.
It’s very hard for me to undo all the steps i’ve done in the last 12 years. I’ve been thinking about this letter for three months and resisted to write it as much as possible. The more time it passes the more I’m convinced this the only way to continue beeing the joyfull guy I’ve always been. On the other hand, I’m sad to see the tryton project is evolving to a personal project where a single person does everything instead of beeing a real communtiy project.
This is not a goodbye letter and I do not discard proposing myself as board candidate in the future. Lets see how the project evolves and if I can find my joy in it! Count my for any communtiy effort which may try to help the tryton project.
I read you all in the tryton forum and I will continue beeing active in the Tryton en Español Telegram group!
All my best wishes!
Sergi a.k.a. pokoli
P.S: As this post can be edited or removed, I uploaded a copy of the origin message here. Nevertheless I prefer to write it here so others can quote parts of this message and repply to them